Be careful what you wish for!

Hello all!
I am so amped right now. I feel like I have gone through so much in the past couple months. Like i mentioned earlier, I have just been set on fire for God. I just want to go out there and tell people about God and what he's done for me and invite people to church and lead people to the Lord. Well when I first had this epiphany, I really tried to invite everyone to church- starting with the people I care most about- my mom, aaron's brother and sister, and some friends. Well every sunday I would invite them and every sunday they wouldn't come. I had a rough week at school and yet again.. no one came to visit our church with us. So that sunday before church, i just broke down and cried. I felt like I was finally starting to do God's will and this is what i get for it?- nothing.. I felt like satan had seen an opportunity that i was nervous about and took advantage of it. I remember that sunday  morning worshiping like normal being in a bad mood and one song came on that I loved. And our pastor slowed it down and in the middle started talking about if you feel defeated if you feel like you are not good enough or that what you are trying is not working... give that thing to God. I just started bawling... I couldn't sing the song anymore because it just made it worse. So i pulled myself together and had a good rest of the day. I texted Eden that day just telling her how i was feeling and everything that was going on. She said something that really stuck with me.. everything that happens, happens on God's time- not ours. You know i got set on fire for God and was amped and invited people and just expected everything to happen in a week and that's not always how it works. God has a plan and things happen according to that plan with what always turns out to be perfect timing. So i told her that I wanted to start doing a bible study with her because i need to get into the word more but just don't feel I know where to start. Another thing is when I start reading the bible, I don't always understand it. So that talk really helped me. I'm pretty sure I had coffee with Carmen at Gray owl that day and venting with her about things always helps put things in perspective. Side note here- friends are priceless.

So for the next couple weeks, I prayed over and over that God would use me- that i was finally listening and ready to do what he had planned for me. Well, i think it was two weeks ago, during church i prayed I can't tell you how many times the same prayer- use me God, open my eyes and ears and show me what to do- i want to show heart (our theme in church right is "show heart"). I went home to hang out a little bit before work. I tried to release my shift that night because i REALLY did not want to go. But i had to go in. I walk in the door and i see a friend who used to work at BJs but recently got a new job. I was happy to see her and asked the normal "how are ya" and turns out she was going through a really hard time, barely hanging on. I sat there and talked to her for 30 minutes just telling her about God's love and that i would do whatever she needed and that everything would work out. It was incredible- here I had been asking God to give me an opportunity and he gave me one- that day! Craziness. I loved that. Well since then i have started posting more and more stuff on facebook about my experiences and a lot of people have come up and talked to me about it. All these weeks I had been inviting people and felt so deafeated and I kid you not in the past two weeks, i have talked to atleast 8 people about my church and just different things about faith and what not. It is fantastic! I was really hesitant to start writing this blog bc i didn't feel like anyone would read it or get anything out of it. But i feel like I am supposed to do this. If nothing else- just for people to get to know me better and to hear some positive things about God and all the great things he does for me.  I am supposed to have ATLEAST 2 guests at church this sunday and i really hope they come. AAAAA i'm so excited.

One other thing I have been thinking about is starting a bible study for young women like myself. I talk to so many girls my age at work and school that i just feel need some encouragement and to know that God loves them. What better way then to hang with your girlfriends and grow closer to God? It has been another thing that has been bouncing around my head.. not sure if it is from God or if it was a random idea. So if you read this and would be interested in doing something like that or participating, let me know. Well, i am going to go hang out with Carmen for a little bit but I just wanted to share my inspiration and Joy that i was feeling! Until next time, God bless you all and be careful what you wish for, cause you just might get it! :)